so much to do, not enough time.

The things I enjoy doing these days include:

• Watching re-runs of In Treatment. One of my favorite shows in the history of my show-watching.
• Watching Big Love.
• Reading Eat Pray Love. I started it in December and am soaking in every page.
• Messing aroud with the Hopeful Parents website.
• Meditating.

I feel like I’m in such a good, positive space right now, save the super crabby comment I left on Jen’s site the other day. (Sorry again!)

Meditating has been such a blessing. I find myself doing it several times a day. For instance, this morning, instead of spending 40 minutes at Target buying stuff we need plus a whole bunch of extras that I eye at home wondering what I was thinking, I shaved 5 minutes off my allotted time and meditated in the car.

I don’t think I can thank Elizabeth enough for that helpful suggestion. Sitting for five minutes in utter quiet has helped me reset the volume of my otherwise loud life. Plus, you can meditate anywhere. You don’t need anything except you.

In the past few months, I’ve reached a new level of acceptance. We’re not the typical American family — though we never were to begin with, considering our racial diversity — but we’re also not the family I envisioned creating either. And I’m okay with that now. I’m okay that my days are tougher than most moms out there. That said, I know that my days could be far worse. And I am thankful for that blessing.

Anyway, not quite sure where I’m going with this, but that I have found joy again. I’m not sure how it got here exactly, but it’s nice to be back.